My Luvli...: January 2011

Jan 29, 2011

just an idea

of how i always feel toward someone i consider special...

so weirddd...

never feel good enough...

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When you were here before,

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel,

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

when I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again

She's running out

She run run run run...

run... run...

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

Jan 23, 2011

3 years now...

".... I hate the way you talk to me

And the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme. 

I hate it...
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around 
and the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;

Not even at all. ..."

***
Taken from the movie of "10 things I hate about you"
the movie where i first had a crush on you....

where million of girls went gaga over you...




Heath Andrew Ledger...
 its been 3 years that you are gone from the world...but not in our memories...



(4 April 1979 - 22 January 2008)

I hate you for leaving us too soon...
especially when i have to remind myself that u'r gone...
because for me you are still so much alive..but the truth is you are not...

you will be missed, loved and never be forgotten.

Jan 15, 2011

My first photoshoot...

Ha Ha!

I wish!

....

the first time when i got a chance to shoot a pic...it came out blurr...

and i was clueless about how it works...;p

And now,

still in the state of figuring out whats the multi functions are actually for....I tried to use Manual as much as i could....just so that i could understand more....

you see all these pictures have too many distractions... ;p

and...u can see the lighting are not very nice.......some were overexposed...:p

but still its a good shot...but not great...

still cannot make money....;p haha

Actually, it's not about money...haha

but more about...how i can put emotions into a picture...because id been inspired too many time through pictures....

and i want to pass that feeling to every walks of life...

so that they too can appreciate their life no matter how hard....kunun...;p

make money juga la....sikit2...

I pray that someday i will own my very ownnn DSLR...

Lord, grant my prayer....i'd asked....:(

harap2 sia manang 4d....

Peace be with you all!!

Jan 13, 2011

My Christmas in the year of 2010

I love December, it always has been one of my favorite month of the year...

Went back at the 23rd night and reached KK only at midnight...fetch by my dad and my mom and also Jo'el...we reached home sweet home very late after we'd taken our supper at Fohsang...so everyone, already asleep at home especially the kids..so only get to meet everybody on Christmas Eve...

Below taken on Christmas day...
This year we have extra table..so more people can dine together in one table...one long table..
he he.:)

Food prepared by us sisters, mom, cousins and aunt...some were bought by my mom and my dad...

I messed up with my dishes...i made cupcakes and corn soup....ha! ha!
I was supposed to make bigger cupcakes...and design them however i like it....but....since tidak cukup ongkoss...segalanya berantakan sih.....huhu....
*very dissapointed...*

my lovely cousins, Neta and Nicole... my mom's youngest brother's daughter and my dad's youngest sister's daughter....one of them is the youngest in the family and the other one eldest in the family....ok la...that is not necessery...

this is a must....pictures with revamp artificial christmas tree with full of present underneath...

Time to open our presents....this year...we focused more to the children and the grown-up had an exchange gift instead...and i didnt feel sad getting less present than last year...ha ha...because seriouslyy...ongkos babe...

everyone gathered at the living room after the dinner...

*to see the kids happy smile...and their excitement are just priceless....*

I like this shot...because i was holding a dslr...which i want so bad like my wholleeee lifeeee...:p

haha...so here's the leftover if you want...
the chicken (;p ha ha) was so tasty that i kissed it on its nose....ha ha...sawt

Neway, I had a wonderful Christmas...

I hope you had a wonderful Christmas too...

*sigh* cant wait for december....

*Pictures are taken by my aunt meenuk, my brother boboi, and by me*

Jan 9, 2011

Just another show...

...that inspires me...and wow me

Watched Junior Masterchef Australia...

I was amazed with their ability to cook...what have i done in my younger days....na~da~...nada nada nada....ha ha

I remember wanting to help to clean the dishes...just so that i could play with water and bubbles...that was before i could reach the pipe on the sink....ha ha...i was as innocent as a kid should be....nothing like the cute guys above...they look innocent but....fuhhh they cook like a pro....

The youngest contestant was just 8 y.o....and when i was 8, in primary 2...i wonder if i were even allowed in the kitchen...ha ha.....the only thing that i remember is...when i was in primary school....when i was hungry...i will make myself and everyone pancakes...for my mom...boboi...and the maids... haha....thats the most simple thing i can do i guess...and i did it solo...no one help me *proud**big smile*...:p....hahaha....

but....but my friend...which was a year older than me...cook for her whole family for dinner...so i lost to her...haha....:p nothing to be proud of afterall....:p

p.s.i wonder how their parents teach them to cook and bake....its difficult to make them remember their abc and 123....they must have done the same recipe everynight...
or maybe their kids are just pure genius...and talented...