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Hello guys :)

2012-01-25T13:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARR!!!

Was supposed to update my blog yesterday...but half part of my Laptop kena hujan yesterday...due to unpredictable weather....haishh...so I have to tahan hati and not switch on my laptop yesterday....Nasib ada hair-dryer.....And was thinking to put inside the rice bucket...just in casee....but...i figured kali karing sudaa....:p....desperate to go online...:p

Never again I leave my laptop near the window while I am not aroundd.....speaking about my laptop....My laptop alwaayyssss get stuck...walaupun bulum panas.......yesterday pacah record(before the incident yg kna hujan)....I am very positive that some one...(I think I know) has been manipulating my computer....yeahhh....i trust him not to harm my computer....but panattt baaa balik2 stuckk....

Okaylah.....I have no proof....so whoever that person...pandai2 la jaga diri...

OOOrrr....it could be because I open too many tabs..:p..ssooo mee.....ha ha....sorry lor....

mmm..do you think Apple is better than Windows....last time I used apple...I didnt like it...because I didnt like the mouse....that simple little thing changed my mind about Apple....but who knows....Sometimes in order to love something...you have to really get to know about them...before deciding you really dont like it....but for now....I prefer Windows...

p.s. still hunting job....

One day David Nicholls (feedback)

2012-01-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

Remember about the book I started reading back in October 2011? One Day by David Nicholls

Just like the other books...I didnt finish it.....again.....

what happened? apparently Ive watched the movie before I finish the book~a major mistake while reading the book~....and get very very shocked and dissapointed!!! No im not saying the linestory is sucks....its just that I really have no clue that it will be like that....

They got alot of special moments...but the girl just messed up alot....and let the moment passed.......i want to knock her head e-ve-ry time....

moral of the story...if u know it and u want it....go get it....

but....its easier said than done, i know that too....hu hu...

Safe and sound

2012-01-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

I think this is one of the best of Taylor swift....most meaningful from the rest....no offence...but I love beyonce more than TS before....but right now they stand in par...just because of this song :p...at least forrr 'x' period of time......and in different genre though...vocally...beyonce is better....live or not...but its very hard to deny this...TS composed alot of beautiful songs...thumbs up TS...

Its very hard not to love this song....but it hurts my feeling alot...(though it has different meaning from whats in my mind...which also means....this song reminds me of what lies deep inside my heart)

sometimes...no matter how safe and sound and that 'I' will be 'alright'...sometimes...i think 'not feeling alright' is better than feeling 'alright'...

Maybe the 'heart' is still 'HOPING'...'WAITING' in vain...'HOPING'...'willingly, foolishly'...

I dont wanna feel alright....how negative can one be? owh I hate...but sometimes its bigger than me...

i will never forget...

i can't never forget...

Mission Statement

2012-01-03T03:03:00.004+08:00

My Mission Statement for the year of 2012

Self Growth: Attitude, Public Speaking, Grooming, to achieve all my goals/2012 resolutions;

Career: Accounts or hobbies;

Money: Saving, Investment;

Love: Family, Relationship;

Travelling: to places I want to go...; and

To be open in whatever adversities that comes along...

Day 2, A photo of you and your family

2012-01-03T02:17:00.004+08:00

this is a picture of me and my family...from my grandmother and grandfather downline....

2011 Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T01:17:00.007+08:00

It's Christmas Eve....Have a blessed Christmas Eve everyone...

dont really feel the spirit of Christmas...I cant feel it...not yet....hmmm...

December 2011 is quite a trying month...I almost didnt get my AL...almost have to work until the end of year.......

And it get worst when my transportation to Apt was not on time .....Missed my flight....where I have to queue at counter (if im not mistaken) 65/66/67....extra exp for cab and luggage + penalty fees for missed flight...almost have to pay rm450 for my extra luggage....which if i didnt missed my flight I have to pay that much anyway....thanks to one of the staff 'Fauzi' who helped me with my extra luggage...and most probably put a comment in their ssystem so i get priority for a seat...:p....because I knew the 2 ladies who queued earlier....just like me waited since the day before...and most of all thanks to the Kutai's clan who prayed for me....

Besides that...my Aunt is not in a good conditions for a celebration....and she refuse to go for a medical check up.......and my father is not in a pink of health too...

And I am Roomlesss...and the room Im suppose to beautify is from what I can see....is quite hopeless for coziness.......and now jobless....and not for very long....would probably be penniless....if i dont get a job in the near future....and may be quite desperate....ha ha....

Ohh yaa....and I found out that the DSLR was stolen.....whoever that person is....u'r soooo hopeless....maybe there is a reason to that.....why Lorddd?

Dear Lord, Have mercy on me...

Anyway.. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas Eve....and pleasant December...

Day 1 : 15 facts about you

2011-12-24T01:02:00.001+08:00

ok ok, noww.....i just pretend to be serious as if im one of the interesting blogger....:p.....everyone is interesting in their own way....and its a fact...*chuckles*....so lets get started...

#1. I can online in the privacy of my room for the whole day without being bored....

#2. I dont like drama....I mean real life drama....haha....

#3. I am quite a hot tempered person...

#4. I dream alot....realistically as well as unrealistically...

#5. I love music...

#6. I have alottt of dreams....and I can go crazy thinking about them....

#7. I lovee my privacy....

#8. I am damn scared of Thunder!

#9. I enjoy hanging out with friends...

#10. I enjoy clubbing....but at the end of the day.....I feel extra down....especially if I drink too much...

#11. I love doing indoor activities.....as much as I love outdoor activities....

#12. My opinion....when one doesnt love you, there's no reason why one should force that one person to love you back...u just have to let go...or keep whatever bitterness you feel...because that kind of person wont be around long enough to stay w you forever...

#13. Im not a fan of commitment unless im 110% sure about what I want...

#14. Sometimes I cry too much....haha....so embarassing...

#15. I am stronger than how I look....I amazed myself....like for realll....:)

And so,

2011-12-15T11:16:00.002+08:00

I am officialllyy without a job...anyone wants to hire me....ha ha...

today i need to clear CK's room and mine too and I just dont know whether i should throw some of my things or not...what a waste..

can u pls switch on the lights?

2011-12-11T21:13:00.005+08:00

Anyway, my dear friends....

What kind of topic that you want to hear more from me? I feel like Ive been talking to walls all these time...just ym me...fb me...or talk to my face....i need ideas...ive got a few...but maybe that can wait later on....

30 days blogging challenge

2011-12-11T20:48:00.005+08:00

Hey there,

Since I always have this writer's block, I decided to take this fun challenge.....but since I wont be able to blog everyday, I probably stretch the-supposed-to-be daily challenge blog to weekly challenge or maybe monthly or most probably longer.....Since there is no term and condition....I would probably change the topic....:)) ha ha ha.....doesnt sound like a challenge anymore huh....;p...till then.....

Day 1 - 15 facts about you.

Day 2 - A photo of you and your family

Day 3 - Your recent activity

Day 4 - Idea of a perfect date

Day 5 - When was the last time you did something for the first time

Day 6 - Your celebrity crush

Day 7 - A picture of you last 2 years & now, & how you changed since then

Day 8 - Your dream wedding

Day 9 - A song to match your mood

Day 10 - One of your favourite photo

Day 11 - Something you ate today

Day 12 - Photo of the last item you purchased

Day 13 - Your footwear collection

Day 14 - What you have been doing for the past 1 week

Day 15 - Photograph of the town you live in

Day 16 - Tv show that you are currently addicted to

Day 17 - Your favourite photo of your friends

Day 18 - A photo of somewhere you have been to

Day 19 - What's in your make-up bag

Day 20 - A random photo and its description

Day 21 - Your pets

Day 22 - Your dream house

Day 23 - How was your day today?

Day 24 - Meaning behind your blog name

Day 25 - Things you look forward to

Day 26 - Your favorite cartoon character

Day 27 - Wishes

Day 28 - Things you've been eyeing on but haven't got the chance to own it

Day 29 - 3 Random photos you have taken 3 years ago

Day 30 - Photo of urself 2day & 3 goos things that happened in the past 30 days

Snow White and the Huntsman

2011-12-10T00:56:00.005+08:00

Saw this trailer, and I cant wait to watch it....

See...I think this character suits her more than that BE~~~LLA...of twilight....And I think she's now a better actor...im surprised....

Guess shes got more facial expression than .....just....

...

Anyhow....happy waiting...

P.S. Isnt that THORRR?... I mean....err Chrisss Hemsworth! ! ! ! yayy!!

Home

2011-12-01T22:02:00.003+08:00

Awww...this is so sweet..

2011-11-30T13:56:00.002+08:00

Am considering to change to a new blog....my current blog got some problems...but am not sure how when what where...etc etc....

but until that day...I will still be using this blog....will let you know about my new link If i finally create a new blog....:)

So its the end of November

2011-11-30T00:49:00.002+08:00

Its 30th November peeps...another day and tomorrow will be December....the most wonderful time of the year...yeayy....well except for Easter....

My boss just started to design for recruitment ad this morning...no worries thats easy...they can just reuse the old ad...and amend here and there, wala....butttt its abit impossible to get some one in a week or two....but hey....by hook or by crook i will get on that airplane....i cant afford to buy another flight and last minute!!...besides, its christmas! and there's no way im going to miss christmas....cause i dont want to and I wont...so the best is...to hope for the best...if my boss wont pay me because of that, then theres nothing i can do...but i hope so much that he will...its christmas...

Julie Powell

2011-11-27T05:26:00.005+08:00

Speaking about cooking....

mmm....I have this love and loathe relationship with cooking...I love doing it...but I just hatee it when I have to do it everyday especially when I have to do it like a daily chore....but cooking is what I love to do....to challenge myself....to create wonderful meal and know that I succeed...great or not....thats another story...ha ha...

and that also includes watching whatever cooking shows....moviess and all that....I love the story about Julie Powell...watched the movie 'Julia and julie'- story about Julia and Julie how they venture into cooking and becoming successful.....Julia Child....trying her best to write and sell 'Mastering the art of french cooking'....while Julie, become famous blogger and author by blogging about her attempt to cook all the recipes in Julia Child's Cookbook....

So here's her Official Blog....Too bad I cannot find her Original blog anymore....Must have been deactivated or something...what a waste...just in case if its still in the WWW...would you be kind enough to share...but I doubt that....

Vikingdom

2011-11-27T02:36:00.007+08:00

Vikingdom...

Cant wait for this one....I dont know what to expect from this movie....

I dont know what the movie is about...but looking at the picture above...u can guess whats it about...the main character is dominic purcell...he was one of the cast from prison break....besides that....the movie is direct by Yusri Abd Halim....Im very curious of how far Malaysian KRU Motion Pictures can go...Last directed 'Cicakman' turned out ok...but how can I judge when I havent watch it...

And what makes it more interesting is one of the cast is a norwegian-malaysian....Natassia Malthe...I wonder if she speaks sabahan...but who cares if she dont...I dont know...Im very proud of whoever malaysian who made it to hollywood...not just localised....just like Yuna Zee Avi Chennelle...eventhough few of them never recide here....stilll...

If u think she's familiar....she's one of the bad guy in Elektra....Since i dont know much and Im lazy to do research...I think thats all for today....

Christmas and 2012 Project

2011-11-27T01:58:00.005+08:00

One month to go until Christmas....as usual, I want to do alot of things for Christmas....guess wanting to do something is not as simple as the mind visualise it....alot of aspect need to think...and all these ideas and excuses created by my brain is making me crazy....

too many things too little time....and not just for christmas....I think next year will be a hectic year for me...I love being busy...Because when Im not, i will be very down and moody...but then again i love my quiet time....i can stay in my room all day long and yet loving it...as long as I do something...thanks to my ukulele...my laptop and my books(which I rarely flip open nowadays)....and myyy so called unwanted room....yeay IM MOVING to a new room(in the name of privacy Im willing to move)...yeay...I dont know howw...but Im gonna revamp it....myself ....at first I dont like this room....but its empty for the last few years...5-10 years i guess...so since i never had a sense of belonging towards any room my whole life...eventhough Im sleeping alone...IM SHARING ...(the downside of being the younger sister).....Im quite excited to do whatever I want to this room without any permission, no feeling guilty or waste of money....yeay...I hope this excitement dont die on me at the first few month....

First of all...Im gonna paint the room Black....wahahhaha.....no just kidding....but im gonna paint the room...and the rest lets see what I can do.....and yess....before that, I need to find a new job, which pays enough to pay my dream....hhuhu...and i have alot of dreams....arghh...

Until then peeps...

Breaking Dawn

2011-11-26T23:18:00.005+08:00

Watched the breaking dawn....its not the best movie ever...but still at least i did something else besides just sitting in front of the computer all day long........duhh...

I love the wedding part....but its abit quiet dont you think? abit gloomy despite the beautiful decoration and the crowd.....and i love esme isle.....and the sea + the moon...but i dont really like how they describe how bella felt after the first night...and i cant wait to meet renesme...such a beautiful lady....guess Jacob was imprinted to Renesme...:) yeay i knew....and shes more beautiful then bella....:p I wonder how they describe bella's and renesme's superpower...hahaa....

Guess...another half part to go....and the movie will end....arr just like Harry potter...everything has its end....I hate goodbyee....always hate goodbyes....

My Happiest Moment

2011-11-11T23:57:00.001+08:00

There are just so many happiest moment to choose.....too bad not all the happiest moment were captured....but of course I did captured a few happiest moments in my life...but sadly to say most of them not as clear as i hope...cos most of them are just captured from my handphone camera and thank goodness for some of my friends(almost all of them) are photography freak~~~who can afford better camera...ha ha....

So...my happiest moment....would be the day that I conquered Mt. Kinabalu.....first day...of our Mt Kinabalu climb..the starting point was from mesilau gate.....up uP UP! to Laban Rata where we stayed overnight...and the next following day, early dawn around 3am....we started the climb to the peak....believe me its not as simple as abc...for those who are planning to climb the mt kinabalu...pls work out....or u might stay behind in the haunted chalet...alone...jk...ha ha...(no kidding)....

Here are just a few of the pictures taken during that day....(just ignore me)...look at my surrounding....Mt Kinabalu is adventure you should consider....

I was lucky enought to snapped this view....my most favorite picture...

beautiful floras

Look at the clouds at the background...nice right....and this was at Laban rata...

tired...but worth it

still long way to go

this was how far I walked that 2 days alone just so that I reached the peak... 4,095 m.....the highest Mountain in SOUTHEAST ASIA! really? Click here in order to see the Mt. Kinabalu from other perspective(Kiram Village)-the 12th picture is the Mt Kinabalu...just for your imagination of what Mt. Kinabalu looks like from afar....

So Here's my Happiest Moment

dot dot dot

World Food Day

2011-10-24T01:16:00.005+08:00

Have u done anything to payback the world....

I did....^_^

even just a small task...at least I was part of a big cause...I am glad to say that I was one of the millions of people who helped out on WORLD FOOD DAY...

just if u are wondering...it was a meal packaging event....where certain ingredients + vitamins put into a plastic , weighted and sealed and then boxed....these packaging will then be distributed to all over the world...especially crisis-burdened places...

I quite enjoyed it....I might probably volunteer for next year WFD...

yeap

2011-10-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

I dont know about the future yet...but I plan to spend alot of my time with my blog....

Is now reading....

2011-10-22T03:23:00.003+08:00

Did I tell u that its been a long time since i really3 read a book and enjoy it.....hmmm....most of the time I force myself to read, which is not fun at all...Whatever book I started reading...it will only half-read....and the 1st book of Harry Potter that i bought last July..not a single page flip open...still looking new as ever...and months after....my so called motivation gone again......Nowadays...DSLR Mag is what I read....err not really...more like looking at the marvelous and wonderful pictures taken....but not reading it...ha haa....

but hey....this book could be my saviour....the movie will be coming out soon....and I've watched the trailer....love it!....and so I decided to read this book before watching it....

I dont know what really made me buy this book...believe me, I never really buy a book unless I can relate to it or if it reallly5 interesting....becausee there are lotsss of books that I havent read here...maybe neverr....but stilll there is really no need for me to buy.....but I reallly3 can relate to this book i almost cried..how sweet and stupid...but i dont know...I would probably write about this again later for the review....

Until then peeps..

Here I come world of wild imagination...muaahaha...

Books E-store....

2011-10-13T22:49:00.007+08:00

was just checking around for nothing in particular in fb....and then i found this...

Books4Charity Facebook

and then i found another one....

Book Xcess Facebook

Or you can visit the Bookxcess Blog

Yeay for cheaper bookss!!!

Though I can just read online, which is FOC...nothing can beat the smell of a book when u are reading it....or better yet just steal some from my sister's library.....and of course return later...maybe i can find if there's any double....then i can just waris and sign my name...muahaha....jk.....

But anyhow...I'm sure there are some books that I want to collect for myself....

-o- sleepy...

30 second to mars live in i-city

2011-10-09T19:15:00.004+08:00

This is what I missed last July....just got to post it in here...yeayyy....i know i know....this is old storyy....bla bla bla....

I love Jared Leto not from his acting career(i love the rest tooo....but the thing is He's the only one i know...they are a great band...)....I never watch whatsoever movie he acted yet....never seen alexander the great...and never seen the fat jared leto movie too....i have no idea whats the title....I love him purely because of his music...I love his vocal....and cant deny i love his looks....muahaha...he have this very sharp and smoky eyes..i dont even know whats that suppose to mean anymore....sharp and smoky......hhahah...ohh weelll....

his voice.....well this is how I describe his voice....thundering sound....strict demanding and desperate....HA HA.....sharp but not that sharp....neverending voice.....u know what....i think i need an english class.....ok la untill later...

Forever Trilogy...

2011-10-09T15:28:00.010+08:00

I downloaded calibre a month ago when i was in KK....but I have no idea how to use it...Looking forward for Christmas so I can read lottsa books...but i doubt that....since my interest for reading this year is extremely low...most of the time i spent most of my money to dslr magazine...which have no use for me since i dont have a dslr of my own...but one thing....it burns my desire to have one (i can harldly breath most of the time)....

back to romance....Ive read like thousands of romance...haha...no....not really...but i lose count...and Jude Devaraux -Knight in shining armour...that was my very first romance....which i love so much...but if i read it now....i will only roll my eyes to every part of it....because after reading a bunch of her books it can be abit predictable....ha ha

but this book is still one of my favorite..Read the excerpt here

But for my opinion...the best of Jude Devaraux are these 3 books....Forever, Always & Forever and always...a trilogy series by JD...which is a combination of romance and horror...with a pinch of magic....err not really magic like magic in harry potter...more like 6th sense and witchcraft....errr...

something like that laa

Read Forever Excerpt

Read Forever & Always Excerpt

Read Always Excerpt

I forget which is which first....but the first book is forever....and err forever&always ... always....or otherwise....u can ask for assistant from the bookstore keeper....;p

go on ...get started...

Facebook Timeline

2011-10-08T12:32:00.004+08:00

So this is how facebook timeline looks likee....I just enabled mine by a few simple steps....but it's better for you to wait for its launch, which is on the 15/10/2011....which is 1 week to go...plus minuss...Its been out in the news paper for few times now....so they have actually warned us about the new facebook timelinee.....so nooo complain about the new facebook layout....becausee they totally change it...well at least most of it.....

I like the fact that facebook is now have its own archive....you can go back to the old times anytime....haha....its like your whole story in there....from the day u wr born until present....

I still havent discover the whole thing yet...idk what open graph is...arr(must be the place where i set the new timeline....im clueless)...but i will find out soon...the thing is...idk how to go there anymore....ha ha...i hope i dont ruin my facebook...its a good thing that i never deactivate my old account..

personally, i love facebook timeline....but i believe alot of people will complain and nag about it....especially when the smallest change like font size was big deal for them(when they can just click control+)....but mark zuckeberg....i love it....nowww....i want to find out more about privacy and all that...i hope u dont remove that Zuck....

So this is how

Who moved my cheese?

2011-09-19T13:05:00.005+08:00

I feel something bothering me these past 2 days...but somehow I couldn't answer what and why...could be because I was hungry most of the time(which Ive been filling my stomach with 3 in 1 milk tea, i just dont have the appetite to eat), or could be due to boredom, could probably due to missing some one badly...Just gonna try my best to ignore this...

December is coming...which I look forward big time...kinda feel nervous...can I handle this?...I dont know...just gonna follow the flow...Have faith in God...I hope this is something that God want me to do...Force me to do more likely ;p....

When your 'cheese(s)' has been move...move on, find another cheese...well just gonna holding on to one particular cheese...but that 'cheese' Im gonna ignore for a while, store it in a safe place, till i found a solid ground to stand...then the rest will come along...right? yeay....a girl can hope...

Hey y'all

2011-09-11T02:57:00.002+08:00

Just if you are wondering....Im back to KL....

I had fun meeting my friends...didnt get to meet all of my friends though....

:( :( :(

HUGS MK...

^___^

2011-08-27T03:56:00.003+08:00

KK Here I come...

I mish mish you KK...

Friends....Im hereee....

On the Phone

2011-08-25T03:26:00.003+08:00

was about to hang up the phone when i heard kid's voice on the other line...have to really listen to her voice due to the too many background sound....

Caitlyn: What's your Name...*Repeat few time*

MK: Hi Caitlyn, this is Maria, your friend.

Caitlyn: HI AUNTY MARIA! Ashton told me you're going back tomorrow!

MK: No I am not going back tomorrow

Caitlyn: *Dissapointed silence*

MK: Im going back on Friday.

Caitlyn: I LOVE YOU! *repeat few time*

MK: I lOVE YOU TOO CAITLYN. How are you?

Caitlyn: I love you Aunty Maria.

*Aaww*

I am a Minesweeper Freak

2011-08-06T12:39:00.005+08:00

My besttime score for

Beginner is 4 seconds....

Otherwise most of the time I get 7 seconds...

Yeay Luck have pretty much played its part.

Cousin Paul got 3 seconds...ppfft...haha...

*proof* haha...i had to quickly snap this before it automatically scan/change to the next session...

Will update the intermediate level next time...:)) ha ha

just some thing about nothing....

2011-08-01T01:13:00.003+08:00

When I was a kid, I told my mom that I want to be a singer...

I still remember when I was just 5 to 12 yo....i used to go to my childhood friends house...and we would practised thiss dance step which were choreographed by my childhood friend while singing...and then performed it as if we were already artist in front of her other relatives and we really enjoyed it haha....i wonder why im not a good dancer during this age...either i am uncomfortable or just plain shy or maybe i have no talent when it comes to choreography :))...but during these time of my life that got my long time hobby, which is singing.......good or bad singer...mmm i have no answer....but personally...why do i sound like a kid? and then sometimes, when i record myself singing..., i get this nasally sound coming out from my mouth.....*frustrated*

and there my friends, how i know i should not be a singer...ha haa! well it will be my hobby for sure...and music will always be in my heart....

Just sharing

2011-07-17T21:38:00.013+08:00

What you missed during our HP session on the 13th of July in the cinema....

I almost cried/ cried...when HP's team trying to buy time...and when Voldy's Team attackin Hogwarts

I clapped hands when Ron's mom, Molly killed the most annoying character in HP, Bellatrix. ;p

Everyone clapped hands....ha ha ha !

Someone in the cinema who sat waaaayyy in frontt didnt set her/his phone to "silent"....and it rang for almost 1 minute.....and then people went like 'Oooiii!....Bodoh!!....haiiishhh'...and then it stoppped...

Few seconds later....It rangs againnn!!!! *roll eyes*

Can't believe one of the twin brother died....

Cant believe this, SEVERUS & Lily?

Can't believe they were not alive again..all the good white wizards and witches...hu hu

Wow they are all marriedd at last....

10.

CK my sister, reported asleep during the movie....heck! ....she even fell asleep during Trasformers.....if these 2 movies made her sleepy...I dont know what movie make her stay awake...haha...-__-

Whatever that has a beginning has an end

2011-07-17T14:11:00.016+08:00

Alas, HARRY POTTER has ended.

I've watched alll of them....all 7 of them.

Dont believe me when I say 'Ive watched them all'...haha....i think I missed 1 or 2 movies...cant remember which though....somehow that makes me feel happy because there are things that are yet to be discovered...and will beee....veryy soon....

Now that it has ended...it left a hole inside my heart....it is as if you are waving goodbye to someone you've known and love after knowing them for 10 years, 10 year? ermm not counting....and then they are gone from your life forever....except that they live in your memory, and you can meet them again by watching the repeat on TV which is quite different experience from the very first time U watched it in the cinema ~not knowing what to expect at all....new magic? new secret? new enemy? new key? moree beautiful scene? new character???

~SPOILER ALERT~

About the last part of HP...I almost cried watching it... perhaps it was because of their unity and loyalty towards HP....or maybe it was because of their beautifully presented magic....or simply because it was the last HP...and there will be no more HP....*sob sob*...

-Unexpected-

I dont know that Severus will be verrry important character....not that he's not...I mean important as important to complete the story.....I didnt know that he once have a crush with LiLy-gal....Idk...maybe bf-gf rship....or just bff for life until they got into Hogwarts and seperated by groups...Lily to Griffindo and Severus to Slytherin...hell i dont even know whether thats the right way to spell their groups....anyway...will be talking about the books soon....I think after watching the movies it is time for me to explore the book and to compare it with the movie....yeay i will be talking alot about HP I hope....though it is a bit too late...but hey....the HP is classicc...it wont just fade in time....it will be a top listed novels children must-have books...unless people nowadays dont make love anymore than I believe my two cents post about HP is ....arrr why am i explaining my self....ok whatever skip this.....

Though there were few plots/scenes I dont completely understand...or understand but cant explain ha haa( which I only knew by logic or by heart which only I understood, haha which might not be the correct explaination...ha ha)...I rated H/P 8 out of 10......though I really want to give 10/10 ha ha...hey, no matter how good....everything have a space for improvement....so 8/10 is freaking great man.....

*one of the most annoying character in HP...which made HP more interesting*

Owhh yaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the worst rumours Ive heard about HP....-____-

1. HP died....yeay.....-__-...and then many people got madddd because the author J.K Rowling let the character die....ha ha

2. Everyone is aliveeee againnn...the good oness....-____-.....on the last part...I waass ACTUALLY waiting for a sign that James and Lily and even sirius black risen from the dead....tilll i saw ALBUS SEVERUS POTTER......and then I said 'finish?'..u dont know howw dissapointed I was...because I lovee all of the characterrss....

to HARRY POTTER, RON WEASLEY AND HERMIONE GRANGER and all...CHEERSS.....

All Photos are not belong to me...

And Here is for the HARRY POTTER DIEHARDFANS...whatever you call yourself....

Why it is not a good idea to....

2011-07-11T00:32:00.007+08:00

....skip a meal on purpose/or even avoid the food you are craving for or even 'diet'(where alot of youngsters defined 'diet' as skipping their meal or not eating anything at all...)...................from my observation........and i'm not saying it's not scientifically proven because i dont know, it is just MY observation/personal experience.......;p

first....simply because...your stomach will haunt you later...by giving you problem such as gastric....and making noises(during meeting/dating/etc) to embarass you(some people feel that it's embarrassing...dunno y)...plus u will feel weak all day longg(it is that time where u will hallucinate about food) ahaha....

...Ur sense of smells will double or maybe triple its sensitivity....which makes everything smells super nice(foods/drinks only)...and your brain will tell you over and over to eat something...and then you find urself searching for food in the fridge....and then you decided to eat a little....just to taste....but then u realise that u are super hungry...u decided to eat a lil' bit more...and u ended up eating more than the usual portion of food ...maybe twice as much....and then u feel guilty....

ORRrrr.......you are craving for pizza....BigMac Burger + icecold coke maybe...maybe both.....but u are trying to 'DIET'....and u dont eat the whole day.....because yesterday u've eaten all kind of foods during your cousin wedding (BUFFET-style: eat as much as you can)...u probably feel going for 2nd round is too too much....so u feel guilty about it....U decided to eat nothing because you are feeling so bloated.....you survive the first day...by not eating anything....and then come tomorrow....you do the same thing again....you feel wonderful because your stomach somehow feel much lighter than the last time...and when u look at the mirror ...u feel that ur stomach is slightly flatter....:))lol....and then u feel better....and it's TIME TO EAT....and then u find yourself listing foods that u want to eat tomorrow....of course fastfoods are in the list......and then u pigout for both pizza and MCD.....hahhaa.....and then come tomorrow....here comes pizza and MCD again....or maybe a glass of ice blended mocha for the reward.....and then u feel guilty.....and the cycle go round and round.....

UNLESSS....U are very motivated(which even if u succeed...U will have to face gastric later...if u dont know how to eat healthily...)...u wont succeed....

Thats y it is not a good idea to skip meals on purpose/or even skip the food you are craving for or even diet(where youngster nowadays defined it as not eating anything at all...)...

The keypoint is.....Balance....eat slowly...taste your food properly....no need to rush...eat enough...no more, no less....dont wait to eat something until u crave for it....just eat the food already....small portion remember....balance...

p.s. it might not works for everybody...but it works for me...for now....and for those who are overweight....You have to slowly cutting down your intake of food...just so that you can adjust the gas(scientific name..owh no...i have no idea...but the gas will digest the food inside your stomach...anything...just google)...so that u wont be suffering from gastric(i think so...haha)....

Just rambling about Transformers 3

2011-07-07T00:27:00.005+08:00

I wanna write a review about Transformer 3....but I believe half of the world already done so...or at least watched it themselves.....so...i changed my mind....

and yeay...my review would had been all about how i dont like the new girl...haha...but she's pretty just like her nickname in the movie...she looks like an angel...blonde serene fair tall....while Megan looks more like an archangel....angel of war....hahah....tougher character...not as tall...black hair + olive skin...i-dont-care facial expression....slick....

welll ...the movie is awesome...

there my short reviews.....haha ;p

p.s. I added the facebook 'like' button recently...

;p if u havent notice it yet....click 'like' if u like....and click 'like' if u dont like....ha ha....naaa....just click 'like' if u think i deserve a 'like'...or if u want a shortcut to my link from ur facebook wall...

or u can just click 'like' to see how it works....ha ha...nuf said... goodnight all....

Speaking about...

2011-06-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

...Megan Fox...

How can anyone look sooo damn dropdead gorgeous without even trying?

P.s. too bad she is not in Transformer this time...:( i probably not going to watch it...haha...probably ;p

Angry Birds Mania

2011-06-25T18:35:00.006+08:00

ive been waiting and looking forward for weekends...but when it is weekend...i really cannot think of what to do...so im stuck in front of this computer for the past hrs....so bored...I need a boost of caffeine....

Guess what i've been doing....

Well i can say i am addicted to gamesss....ive been killing angry birds and pigs all day long...wanna join....welll, must warn u that it will waste alot of your prescious time especially when u cant control ur addiction....

click Angry birds to play from you computer...(yeay i dont need ipad or i-phone).....but make sure you are using chrome....

your eyes

2011-06-19T03:21:00.006+08:00

when I first saw U,

U have kind eyes

U were shy...not necessary timid

thats all i can say...for i knew little about u back then...

and we didnt talked to each other....

the last time i saw u...

I remember those pair of eyes the most....

U have icy eyes...

I almost believe that they were not yours...he was not u...

U didnt care less....u were not even shy...it seemed like u were mad about something...

the truth is....i still know little about U....

and we didnt talked to each other...

I guess we're always that....

Time took your innocence, change u, and afterall what time have done...we're still just strangers...we knew each other...yet we were just strangers....i know u, as if u are a character from a book...i never see who u really are...never talk to u face to face and see your expression when u talk about something u hold close...never hold your hand to comfort....we're just strangers...who trying to know each other, yet we failed....

Ukejam

2011-06-19T00:50:00.005+08:00

Today I had a blast....

Went to the first Uke Jam ever at Taman Tasik Titiwangsa with MUG..with wawai, jane and jason.

Though mine was the only pinky(beginner!!!) Uke...it was still fine with me...;p...if i am to be serious about music...then i have to upgrade my uke....but for now....me and dolphine...we're all good together...

And now my Uke tuned how it should be...thanks to my friend....he helped me to fixed it...ar how could i ever play with my ukulele not tuned rightly yet still love it....;p

I looked blur in the video..so -__- no video...hahha....thats what beginner are for....blur?..learn...practise...sing nice song....and then some...

Until next time...^-^

Anne Hathaway...

2011-06-15T08:39:00.007+08:00

Did I hear it right?

Anne Hathaway?

"Cat woman" *v [-__-] v*

mmmm....

from princess diaries....

...to catwoman....

okayyy?

on second thought...

i think she will do just great....i hope

....Y she is right for the role?

here's my list....

1. she's got the goody2 character...

2. she's got big round eyes....

3.she's got sexy lips

4. shes got nice nose...haha

5. since love and drgs....i think she can do anything....

6. besidess...shes soo sexyy...

err thats alll....:)

not sure with her stamina though....but thats what actor are for....

Good morning

2011-06-15T08:17:00.004+08:00

Breakfast all?

Yeap im having my coffee right now...

I love!!

Morning breakfast

2011-06-14T08:30:00.004+08:00

Having my breakfast at McD while blogging...

Seriously, my life revolves around the internet...

Morning, afternoon, back from work, midnight...sometimes during dawn.....

I dont think I eat as much as I access internet.

I just cannot live without internet.

tanak kampung..atau kampungan...

2011-06-06T13:52:00.005+08:00

I love fashion...

When it comes to fashion....i know exactly what I love...

but for some reason...i dont really wear fashion....some of those days yeay...but most of the time...I am content wearing jeans and baby-t...nowadays...legging and baby-t...because...legging is sooooo cheap...easy to wash and light....;p...my hair....ponytail...or just roll my hair like a bun and just use rubberban to keep it stay....and then pakai spek....err not sunglassess..just spekmata....

but that will change soon...

~monorail~ On my way home....

A guy: Sabahan ka?

Me: ya ...mcmana kau tau...-___-

A guy: bulih tau ba...macam muka tanak kampung...

*ATUK ATUK*

*jelingan maut*

A guy: macam tanak dari ranau atau keningau...

Me: ooo...sia dari kk bah...

see....not only my slang tells the world that i am sabahan...

Even my looks....a truly sabahan look...kadazandusun la dikatakann...so what la kalau saya bukan pra....

tanak kampung...huhu....because of that.....I need to (AGAINN) force myself...

begaya siikiitt baaa Maria!!! haiyaaa!!!!!

saya mau jadi unduk ngadau...hua hua hua

2011-06-04T03:55:00.003+08:00

Yeay...the very reason y i cannot be unduk ngadau...

1. Tidak cukup inci....;p...not up to the standard height....haha

2. pindik2 tagap...petite muscular legs...

thats enough...no need to mention others...

im thankful for all i am eventhough im not up to unduk ngadau standard...;p

bah pi main jauh jauh....

womanmagnet

2011-06-03T01:14:00.007+08:00

When you are attracted to a womenmagnet...

My advise....

RUN! RUN! RUN!..RUN TO SAVE YOURSELF!

womanmagnet...is a guy who attracts a numbers of girls...thousand of them oh im not counting...withoout even trying....

like womaniser....they attracts...but they also love to have alot of women by their side...women...whore...stripper...human with VJ~Jay....owhhh they love the attention...

Not far different from Casanova....

They use women...women...girls...whore...stripper...slut...gf...ex gf...wife but not his....THEY USE WOMEN for their pleasure.....besides getting X E S....they also get things from women...owhh the world is full of free stuffss....while potato-coaching they get alot of free stuffs....what a life!

It is like a desease....like a cancer....they just cannot control it...how can u control it when you love it?..its just a matter of selfrespect...u dont respect yourself, thats what you got....but i know it is a desease that man can cure only by himself...u got to have a self respect man....and respect towards others....

Above all...they are real good in playing the game...thats y all the girls fall head over heels...OMG....and girls...u dont even realise that u are soo setuupidd in love~with someone who just dont really give a damn(too bad girls)...

One thing about these guys...

They are not capable of true love....harggg...true love...MYTH....its only happen in your head...yea your head.....

easy come ...easy go...thats who u are...

Seriously,

What is your definition of 'Meaningful Life' and 'Purpose of Life'...I bet you dont even know what 'love' is?

Tell me, how will you ever find happiness? tell me...is that what happiness to you?

hmmm

....

p.s. what have you done to me? U know...U will always be a pain in my chest...

if u still wondering who's the pageant reigning queen...

2011-06-01T01:52:00.012+08:00

I especially make this entry for you...

...

Crystel Eve Huminodun Majinbon

the 2010 crowned princess....

ready to pass the crown to the next selected Fairest of them all

...

they must be...

...

...soo nervous kan...

...

so the 2011 Unduk Ngadau....

...

belongs to....!

Ms. Bo Tiza Disimon, of Penampang. :) !!!

Below is the picture of the top 7

Unduk Ngadau 2011 State Level

Winner: Bo Tiza Disimon (Penampang)

2nd Place: Tamparuli

3rd Place: Tuaran

4th Place: Ranau

5th Place: DBKK

6th Place: Sandakan

7th Place: Likas

*photos above belongs to Terrence Isaac Majin*

Bo also won the Gala nite 'Natural Beauty' Title...

*photo belongs to Quincy*

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on another note...

I think Inanam deserved a place...

*photo taken from www.beatyjohn.com*

too bad she didnt get through to the top 7...

must be the Q&A that she lack of...

but who knows...might be the judges...;p

WAR

2011-06-01T01:28:00.007+08:00

My heart is whimpering...crying....

and then came the unintended teardrops...straight from the heart....

I thought my heart is gone...just nt feeling it nowadays...

then my mind absorbs too much unwanted information....

and then my heart starts beating like no one business...it is in war with every beat...

and then it spreads to my brain and now my mind almost explodes...and then my stomach...all the butterflies dead, dead trying to survive...my tummy refuse to take any food or liquid....my mind just wont let that happen...

My eyes...even when I try to close them...try to sleep ...i still can see everything in my mind......

my body is in war....my soul is my hope....

p.s. NO ONE SHOULD EVER FEEL THIS WAY....I hope i am the only one who understand it...n this is just the beginning...how will i ever get thru this....i dont even get to fight for it...

blog is for reading...

2011-05-30T13:29:00.007+08:00

My blog is for reading....

and
I am the author...

whether you like what ive written or not...
it is for you to judge....
u hate? u like?....no worries.....i am still the author of my blog...

U are invited to stalk my blog...anytime u want....

Take nothing especially photos...leave nothing but comments....;p

Ok!
c u when i c u....

demotivate...

2011-05-30T00:17:00.003+08:00

I kinda hate my uke rite now....i hate the sound....

I change to new strings....the sound is loud which is good....but a bit noisy for my liking...now i re-string to the original one....but it doesnt sound as nice as how i loved it before...it sounds mellow alright....but still i want it loud!! but not noisy....

What I want...

2011-05-22T23:58:00.008+08:00

There's alot of things that i wanted...;p

these are just few of them......;p...(hey dont start calling me names...list your oown wantss sure got alot of them...hehehe...)

A Uke Tuner..dont ask y...go figure...

Aquila Strings- yeay i tried to use d'addario string...i think i am suppose to buy a different set(which is the 'hard tension' and another set...to combine so that i get the sound of Jake S. uke's sound...pfftt...)...but the shop only got ....err i cant remember...so my uke sound not too mellow...i think i may restring my uke with the original strings...or maybe just keep it like that...maybe they need time. to get their sound...or maybe thats how it suppose to sound....so it is more suitable for rockers......i really dont know what im talking about soo....i want aquila...since i only know that its the best string for uke.....

but d'addario that im currently use not too bad bah....heeyerr...

A capo...i find it hard to sing a song by 'male-singer' song...

Uke strap...;p....though i dont really need it...lol ;p

Uke case...aisehmannn...bagus kalau perlu...

a girl can dream right...

July is almost here...

*argg again all pictures not mine...

Blessing in disguise

2011-05-22T23:04:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, there are just too many cases about baby dumping...

How frustrating...all the baby....soo small...and cannot fend for themselves.....all they know...they are made...and then born.....and suppose to be loved.....but instead of surviving another day....they died...some just dont get to see the world.....

babies are gifts from God....Of course, ur life will change forever....one thing for sure it always for something better....now that u have a baby growing in your womb...now u have a purpose of living....why kill or discard the baby?

In a long run, ur choice of keeping the baby will always be the right one....say 'no' to baby dumping....find a way....get help from someone u can trust....

Hari Kaamatan di bulan Lima...

2011-05-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

Its almost the end of May,

And it would only mean another girl will be chosen to be the Unduk Ngadau of the year...

'Wakil Inanam' looking really pretty...

I dont know whats her name....but all the best for her...

will post some pictures from fellow fbs....next time round...i'll be the photographer...wont steal pictures anymore k....

2011-05-22T14:34:00.003+08:00

What I love about Beyonce is that...

She is justttt gorgeouss...

and no matter how weird she dance, she still never fail to make it look so sexy...

just a thought

2011-05-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

What would you do if you know for sure that tomorrow is your last day...you cry and pray to God that he will let u live another day...then God gives you a chance to do whatever things you havent done and so he gives u that extra 30days....

What would you do?

strum strum

2011-05-01T19:59:00.003+08:00

Is strumming a new song..which i found yesterday...muahaha...which is quite fun challenging and membingungkan...argh....but i love it :)

Learned the strumming pattern....but when I tried to sing....everything messed up.... *sigh* sadd....Its like I could only sing but not play the uke...or the other way round....haiyaaa...bikin panas...

And the singing part...Florence and Beirut...both rendition are superb...it makes me feel such a failure not to be able to sing as good as them....

and i killed the song over and over again....

postcards from italy...ko tunggu.....

Garden ideas

2011-04-10T04:01:00.006+08:00

Below are some brilliant garden ideas that i found in the net....especially for those who have limited space for their garden....

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This one i love the most....u can plant some selected herbs here...just make sure they can grow together...and not grow too big....u wont want to grow tomatoes here...but for the early stage this is an ideal place...

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And this one...of course ive seen these kind of idea before...some use plastic bottles instead...some even use their watering can...some use their broken garden wheel...some use flat tyres....i used broken spade before..the important thing is u choose the right plant....

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and this one is to beautify your kitchen...u can always hang it outside for air and sunlight...or just put it on the kitchen table...just make sure it wont stained your table...theres always a solution for something...u just have to think..or to save your time....try google...

The wonders of internet...just a click away and walla you are inspired...

well i was inspired...

*all pictures and ideas are not mine*

Shoes or sneakers...pwetty much the same..

2011-04-10T03:30:00.001+08:00

Its not Macbeth...but this is mine....alll minee....

Yeay...ive been searching for a nice pair of sneakers...i bought a pair years ago...its really cheap and really....not comfortable at all....because when i walk...sneakers tried to slipped off from my feet every step i made....so i gave up...the sneakers abandoned long time ago...and funny that when i found it in the shelf...the strings on both sneakers were gone...

sad story of a pair of abandoned sneakers...

but it wont happen to new sneakers...

because they are really comfortable...

and whats important is...there's a sense of belonging towards new sneakers...

i love...

Interest

2011-04-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

Have I ever told you I love gardening as much as i love music...i love gardening since the day I helped my mom to plant some flower bedding outside the kitchen when i was mmm 10? surprisingly they keep on living until few years ago...not counting (when they are forcefully digged out) ha ha ...

yeayy...i love to watch the plant keep on living....and when the first bud came out....the feeling is indescribable...and if the flower is blooming beautifully...i am like a proud mommaa...

buttt....so farr...i feel like everything is not at the right track....so no gardening....

I love cooking even though I hate doing it EVERY SINGLE DAY....by force...this is more about my egoistic nature....

I love arts...but no...i wont do it everyday and not great at it either...thats why i think i am more to appreciate-arts kind of person.....

Yeay I love INTERNET...It is like my personal educator....my personal friend....my dictionary...almost my everything....

no need to mention i end up surfing on the net all day long....like there is no tomorrow.....

I should name him/it like a real person....

Well of course I love alot more thingsss...sometimes i thought i dont have interest in anything at all(and that really freaks me out)...

so this is my post to remind myself i do love alot of things....

:p bwek :p....

2011-04-07T02:04:00.002+08:00

Once in a very blue moon, you will see me drawing....

blue moon spotted some of the nights years ago...

nowadays..

the moon becoming extinct...

Detoxification starts today...

2011-04-05T01:20:00.004+08:00

few slices of lemon..

a teaspoon of honey...

a glass of hot water...

Mixed together...

I dont know whether its working or not...

But no harm trying...

Just another way to detoxify....and to drink more water....

Fighting over a violet scarf

2011-04-04T03:25:00.002+08:00

Caitlyn grabbed a scarf from my hand just a few moment after i paid the Indian guy....

Caitlyn: My scarf....Papa...I have a new scarf.

Me: Nooo....Caitlyn borrow Auntie's scarf.

Caitlyn: Noooo...this is my scarf.

and then caitlyn wiped her nose and wiped her mouth and her face with my violet scarf....and tried to wrapped the overly big sized scarf around her body...obviously attempt failed....then she wrapped the scarf around her hands instead...

Me: Caitlyn dont be too rough...thats my new scarff....

Caitlyn: nooo...my scarfff....

Then i realised....she was just teasing me....A KIDDD TEASING MEEE....haha

She sung ABC...Twinkle twinkle ...Itsy bitsy spider...and then in no time...she forgot about the scarf...

And it was mine again....

not too long after...

Caitlyn: Wheree's my scarf ?...

Me: Don't know....Ghost eat?.....Caitlynnnn where's my scarf??

Caitlyn: Ghost eat....

Ha haa!!!

Its April update...

2011-04-02T14:36:00.008+08:00

"All these things about me you never can tell."

Without saying goodbye, Marchel passed us by like strangers, same goes to Jenny and Febby....

Now here come Appie...uninvited....but yeay...time never say hi nor do they say goodbye...they come and go...like changing clothes...every day every second...

but Im happy to say....I am alive and kicking...

And blog is becoming more shy than ever...rarely say a word...more careful...more in guard...believe it or not, I hate not to be able to say what I want...stupid or not...still at least something...pointless or not....better something...its just a phase of growing up....make mistakes...

i hate it when everything seems to move in slow motion...its like u get to see everyone expression...how their eyes twitching when u said something not very bright...haha.....

Oh...the hell with them...they dont even notice when they are in stupid moment...

errr...? ? ?

and so...i hope..you will never stop loving this not very bright blog...:)...

Just old song...

2011-03-05T05:31:00.000+08:00

till i find somebody new....

Beauty and the Beast

2011-03-03T13:47:00.000+08:00

an update

2011-02-19T19:36:00.004+08:00

Okay one of my long term goal is in progress...

Am learning a musical instrument ~ by my own...i know....i hope this motivation will stay burning in me...

bought a small guitar, now people wont call it small guitar....well whatever...i am a noob neway...to be exact i bought an ukulele....looks very much like toy to me....but toy are fun to play...yeayy

n yea...my wanting to play guitar will be delayed...since right now i am concentrating on my uke...until next time guitar, until next time e/guitar, until next time piano...huhu...i dont know when...lets just put it in my KIV list...

Sucker Punch

2011-02-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

I hope the movie will be as good as the trailer.....

Where I am from...

2011-02-08T01:44:00.009+08:00

This is my version of "Where I am from..." based on George E. L. piece

My first attempt..:)

...Where I'm From by Maria...

I am from plain porridge & wine chicken served during dinner,

I am from kids who conquered the hometown,

I am from broken piano that played a broken sound,

discordant voice & rhythms that healed the soul,

uneven dance and steps that were done to impress,

embarassed, shamed, from the eyes of innocence.

I am from Dragonball to Enid Blyton,

I am from sketches of messy lines,

I am from broken red velvet lipstick and blue ocean eyeshadow,

from a cry after the fallen from up the stairs,

from hurdles, cartwheels, sweats and broken veins,

from victories and from defeats,

delights and dissapointments.

uncaring cheerful beam under the rain.

I am from silence and cluttered mind,

I am from trees, colourful flowers and muddy flipflops,

from fluttering butterflies and buzzing bees, to barking puppies,

from teardrops and guilts..

from impossible dreams, to daydreams, and just a dream,

I am from insecurity, but very certain too,

from in-denial childish, yet unknowingly grown up...

I am from never give up, hope, faith and love...

~MK110209~

Skip this...

2011-02-06T17:36:00.004+08:00

Ive lost interest in novels, korean dramas, and love songs..they are just so annoying...they are just a bucnh of stuff which bored me to death...at least these past few months...i bought 2 new books which arent even half read...."mary stay out all night"....u wait till i have time for you...."love songs"...ok at least i still love them the same...

I dont know what interest me anymore....i guess none....

I was bloghopping from one unknown blog to another unknown blog, just to see what i havent see somewhere around the world, and i stumbled upon a blog which is full of craps...of course not for the writer...but I just hate posts which talks alot about love...how love sucksss....and how they rewrite quote about love....bla bla bla...they are definitely living with love and in love...but then they she said love sucks...what do you mean? sudah lah kamu....

Yeah I know....there are ups and downs....but...life...is it all about love?

Love is not a rocket science...they are so simple...but it is so complicated because human being made it complicated...so love is complicated...;p Our feeling is complicated....our emotion made us complicated...

I know it is very important...but...I just hate reading about it...so cheesy, and it gives me goosebump ha ha... thats a first....ha ha...

Id talked alot about love before...but I never get goosebump...i love talking about love...it is so mindblowing...yet nowadays...it gives me goosebump...OMG...theres something wrong with me...Im so weird...

P.s. where have all the magic and sparks gone....

Oh no wonder, its february....

U r indeed a beautiful disaster to me

2011-02-05T04:34:00.002+08:00

He drowns in his dreams

An exquisite extreme I know

He's as damned as he seems

And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him

My whole world would cave in

It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

He's such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth

As strong as what I believe

A tragedy with

More damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him?

So hard not to blame him

Hold on tight

Oh 'cause I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical

But he's only happy hysterical

I'm searching for some kind of miracle

Waited so long

waited so long

He's soft to the touch

But frayed at the end he breaks

He's never enough

And still he's more than I can take

Oh 'cause I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

Ps. And I am truly hurted and dissappointed.

tumblr

2011-02-05T00:21:00.002+08:00

I have been trying my best to love tumblr...

with no avail, i failed to love tumblr...

tumblr is for people who doesnt write...but agree with what others think and all they do is just reblog what other reblogged from others blog....

Yeap...and when u could reblog, why bother waste time writing....

the only thing i lyk about tumblr is....the photos...and quotes...other than that...hmmm...none...

just an idea

2011-01-29T20:51:00.004+08:00

of how i always feel toward someone i consider special...

so weirddd...

never feel good enough...

***

When you were here before,

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel,

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

when I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again

She's running out

She run run run run...

run... run...

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

3 years now...

2011-01-23T05:52:00.009+08:00

".... I hate the way you talk to me

And the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme. 

I hate it...
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around 
and the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;

Not even at all. ..."

***
Taken from the movie of "10 things I hate about you"
the movie where i first had a crush on you....

where million of girls went gaga over you...




Heath Andrew Ledger...
 its been 3 years that you are gone from the world...but not in our memories...



(4 April 1979 - 22 January 2008)

I hate you for leaving us too soon...
especially when i have to remind myself that u'r gone...
because for me you are still so much alive..but the truth is you are not...

you will be missed, loved and never be forgotten.

My first photoshoot...

2011-01-15T23:01:00.006+08:00

Ha Ha!

I wish!

....

the first time when i got a chance to shoot a pic...it came out blurr...

and i was clueless about how it works...;p

And now,

still in the state of figuring out whats the multi functions are actually for....I tried to use Manual as much as i could....just so that i could understand more....

you see all these pictures have too many distractions... ;p

and...u can see the lighting are not very nice.......some were overexposed...:p

but still its a good shot...but not great...

still cannot make money....;p haha

Actually, it's not about money...haha

but more about...how i can put emotions into a picture...because id been inspired too many time through pictures....

and i want to pass that feeling to every walks of life...

so that they too can appreciate their life no matter how hard....kunun...;p

make money juga la....sikit2...

I pray that someday i will own my very ownnn DSLR...

Lord, grant my prayer....i'd asked....:(

harap2 sia manang 4d....

Peace be with you all!!

My Christmas in the year of 2010

2011-01-13T01:39:00.006+08:00

I love December, it always has been one of my favorite month of the year...

Went back at the 23rd night and reached KK only at midnight...fetch by my dad and my mom and also Jo'el...we reached home sweet home very late after we'd taken our supper at Fohsang...so everyone, already asleep at home especially the kids..so only get to meet everybody on Christmas Eve...

Below taken on Christmas day...
This year we have extra table..so more people can dine together in one table...one long table..
he he.:)

Food prepared by us sisters, mom, cousins and aunt...some were bought by my mom and my dad...

I messed up with my dishes...i made cupcakes and corn soup....ha! ha!
I was supposed to make bigger cupcakes...and design them however i like it....but....since tidak cukup ongkoss...segalanya berantakan sih.....huhu....
*very dissapointed...*

my lovely cousins, Neta and Nicole... my mom's youngest brother's daughter and my dad's youngest sister's daughter....one of them is the youngest in the family and the other one eldest in the family....ok la...that is not necessery...

this is a must....pictures with revamp artificial christmas tree with full of present underneath...

Time to open our presents....this year...we focused more to the children and the grown-up had an exchange gift instead...and i didnt feel sad getting less present than last year...ha ha...because seriouslyy...ongkos babe...

everyone gathered at the living room after the dinner...

*to see the kids happy smile...and their excitement are just priceless....*

I like this shot...because i was holding a dslr...which i want so bad like my wholleeee lifeeee...:p

haha...so here's the leftover if you want...
the chicken (;p ha ha) was so tasty that i kissed it on its nose....ha ha...sawt

Neway, I had a wonderful Christmas...

I hope you had a wonderful Christmas too...

*sigh* cant wait for december....

*Pictures are taken by my aunt meenuk, my brother boboi, and by me*

Just another show...

2011-01-09T22:03:00.005+08:00

...that inspires me...and wow me

Watched Junior Masterchef Australia...

I was amazed with their ability to cook...what have i done in my younger days....na~da~...nada nada nada....ha ha

I remember wanting to help to clean the dishes...just so that i could play with water and bubbles...that was before i could reach the pipe on the sink....ha ha...i was as innocent as a kid should be....nothing like the cute guys above...they look innocent but....fuhhh they cook like a pro....

The youngest contestant was just 8 y.o....and when i was 8, in primary 2...i wonder if i were even allowed in the kitchen...ha ha.....the only thing that i remember is...when i was in primary school....when i was hungry...i will make myself and everyone pancakes...for my mom...boboi...and the maids... haha....thats the most simple thing i can do i guess...and i did it solo...no one help me *proud**big smile*...:p....hahaha....

but....but my friend...which was a year older than me...cook for her whole family for dinner...so i lost to her...haha....:p nothing to be proud of afterall....:p

p.s.i wonder how their parents teach them to cook and bake....its difficult to make them remember their abc and 123....they must have done the same recipe everynight...
or maybe their kids are just pure genius...and talented...

For the love of sweet sweet choco..la..te...

2011-01-06T00:25:00.009+08:00

Auwww....my kidney is killing me...:( huhu

its all because of this...

hhaha...still able to smile despite my painful overwork kidney...:p

mini chocolate where you can enjoy in small portion..

come look closer...

Jangan jealous....my boss bought this to me and to some other colleagues....:p

mmm...yummy....
Ini baru putingnya dongg....just one of the few types of chocolates...he he he

p.s. no minta minta....ok bye
chiao...

Damnnn!

2011-01-04T13:18:00.000+08:00

My Blog is ruined....and i dont have time to fix it...

Take 5

2010-12-23T00:12:00.014+08:00

...one of the famous boyband back in highschool...

I dont recall them at all...but guess what i found...:p

You may have to click the pictures to read...

I wrote this some time in January 1999, like 11 years ago when i was just in form 2....ha ha...i dont even know how to erase it..O..M..G.....

Guess who else i found....HA HA!...

Groom....ing?

2010-12-20T23:38:00.009+08:00

Make...over?

Grooming...

Grooming session with Nicole Jane...

suitable for night event...(ok..this is the best pic i can share...so what)

only wipe off the make up at 3am....because i think it was such a waste to wash it soon after...;p
no one can see like that....

he he

i like baaa....thats why....;p

seek him...rely on him...love him...and then some...

2010-12-19T15:42:00.004+08:00

I believe God have great plan for me...and believe that you too have plan from God...

I know even if Im not living in luxury or at least not living my dream, i believe that in the power of God....everything is possible in a blink of an eye...we just cannot see how it works...

Never let anyone tell you that you are not good enough....you might not good enough in what you are doing right now....but you must be good at something....little thing is something...you never know what little things can do for the world....and because of little things you discover bigger things....

You might have the world's biggest problem on your shoulder....but believe that...you will face another day...day by day....and whatever things that cant kill you, will only make you stronger....
Things happen for a reason...or if you cannot find a reason...than things happen, embrace it....and make it your blesses in disguise...embrace good times......and also adversity...then you will appreciate life more, you will see things differently....

God will make a way for u...if only u dont give up when problem knocking on your door...you will see the good things..sometime u dont realise it's happening right in front you....

Be strong...and know that you will always have some one dear close to you...if you dont think anyone loves you...think about those people who needs to be loved...though they are strangers....love from strangers worth everything for them....we human needs one and another no matter how independent you live your life...one person is worth to another person...and then some...

That person who bring you down....they are just the same....too bad that they have to learn in the hard way...but always remember that every living creatures is priceless....and that one is enough to make great things in this world....one is capable to influence if not million...thousand...or whichever way...one is very important to someone....

Cry a little....then remember to pick yourself up....and keep yourself intact....again never let another person make you feel small...you are bigger than your problem...bigger than the person who makes you feel smalll...thanks to them...they make you stronger....and they stay the same...and never change because of their own ignorance....

Be thankful for everything in your life....be strong...seek him in everything you do...keep him close to your heart....pray...

Notes to self

2010-12-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

Few more days until i fly home...i am soooo excited...excited to meet the little ones...and the grown ups to...;p...

Hang in there Maria...never give up...never give up hope...whatever that cannot kill u...only make u stronger...

*sigh* problem after problem....this is really not good for me...
Really cannot take it anymore....but i gotta be strong....

okay la...

new year is coming...

i forgot that i havent done my yearly goals and new year resolution yet....like i ever keep track ;p....but its ok...better have something than nothing...

Christmas around the corner

2010-12-14T00:52:00.003+08:00

*picture not mine*

next week is christmas...

next week...yeay next Sunday.....

Argghhhh....i only realised that after i said it out loud....and yeay....i even checked the calender to double confirm....

Goodnesss!!..Im broke...and i havent even finish shopping for present....and for my grooming? FORGET about it...ha ha ha...where have all the money gone....must be to the food...and drinks....funny that i lose weight rather than gaining some...but its okay...at least i can eat all i want on christmas day...and days onward...haha....buncit la saja...buncit + kurus...not a pretty sight though....x apa sit up banyak kali or just tarik nafass all day long...ha ha ha....

Neway, just to let the world know that im still alive and kicking...so dont stop visiting my blog okay?...okayy!!

New template

2010-12-05T03:30:00.002+08:00

Yeayyy...new template for Christmas...
but i have trouble placing the nuffnang ad ;(...:((

Marry me, Mary!

2010-11-27T11:30:00.012+08:00

Yeay...its weekend...

And im planning to watch Korean drama series today...

last time i remembered...i watched "playfull kiss"....but i didnt watched the whole episodes....it was not boring...i just stopped watching...maybe next time...

Now im gonna concentrate this one instead....

"Marry me, Mary." aka "Mary stay out all night."....found it while bloghopping...;p

you know i hate it when some movies named their maid character after maria or mary or marie...haha...the one reason why i check out this movie..because the MAIN character named after mary..mae ri to be exact...haha...korean version.

I dont recognised the guys...one reason y i dont like Korean movies because their guy actors seems like so vain..sometimes a bit sissy...i like kim rae won though..and rain too(even though he's a bit soft, he proved me wrong in full hse and in his videoclips..) :p......

oh, i recognised her, Moon Geun Young.

...this picture must be taken from "Autumn in my heart"

And i thought she's still a kid...

See...shes a grown up girl already...

Here's the sypnosis.

If you want to watch, come join me. Im watching it now.

I want to..

2010-11-22T00:35:00.004+08:00

...revamp my blog....

from A to Z....everything!

Usukan Cove

2010-11-21T02:39:00.008+08:00

Another place to relax...

Usukan Cove, Kota Belud, Sabah.

just few hours drive from Kota Kinabalu...you dont have to take ferry or boat in order to get there..

Few pictures of sheds where you can read your choice of book and enjoy the view and the cool breeze.

or u can enjoy the sun...not for me though...

or spend some quality time with your children

or go snorkelling, or something more adventurous like diving(though, divers prefer Mabul Sipadan, Semporna, you know, sometimes you need to go to new places)...not sure of the price though...

you may need to bring your own safety jacket,if you are extra XL hehe ..:p

The truth is...i didnt see any pretty coral....or a single living creature...not one single nemo..hmm..
maybe if i go further...where its deeper...i see one...well...safety first...

the food were nice...that was my 3rd round already...in small portion..yea yea..

You can book for accomodation too if you decide to stay overnight...

Last but not least...

its fun to take picture on the sandy beach...better yet when it's sunset or sunrise...

but these two photos are good enough...

1st attempt...

2nd attempt...still on the ground...
haha...

One thing is prohibited....Fishing is not allowed! ;p

you can get more information here...
You may call Inno Travel/Sabah Tourism and look for Ms. Stoney...
hehe (sempat lagi ;p )

*pictures shot by my aunt and my bro*

Kiram's Village

2010-11-15T13:55:00.003+08:00

id been to Kiram's Village back in August...for 2D/1N trip...

located in Mesilau, Ranau, Sabah. Not far from KK town..just few hours drive from KK Town...

If u are planning to travel...this is the place to consider...

Credit Card is not accepted here...now that i think abt it...i wonder whether there's an atm machine nearby...of course there is silly me...oh well...better prepare some cash...or else you have to drive down to the nearest atm machine...which i never knew where...cos i always bring cash...

Here's the check in counter where you can also order hot drinks or maybe instant noodles upon arrival before taking your luggage to your chalet...
during our trip...it was rainy, so it was very cold...

and there's also karaoke session only start at 730pm to 2200pm....

Just so u know...the road up to Kiram's is tarred...and its not worthy to take cab to Kundasang...because it will be very expensive unless you have alot of money to spend..its better to rent a car which will only cost...mmmm....approx. RM100/day or less...because there's alot of places to visit you know....

better still....find a tour guide...or local people you can trust...

pretty landscape

Cute Chalets

Breathtaking View...and we're not on top of the world yet...because

behind...you can see the Sabahan's Pride...the Mount Kinabalu...

Im sorry for the lack of information...

And here's the contact number should you need to call them...

or you can also visit here to get more information.

Ps. For those who wants to escape from hustle and bustle of the city....this is the right place for you...
for city girls/guys? who loves the shopping complex, clubs, and crowds...this is not recommended...but you can try...u know wat..i love both....

*all pictures taken either by my aunt or my brother....:p*

2010-10-26T23:00:00.004+08:00

Some people are just plain mean regardless what life teach them...

And think that they are the best...

Life teach us to be strong not to be mean!

playing with colors

2010-10-25T03:14:00.011+08:00

...hurmm~~

My sweet cousin and niece

2010-10-24T03:22:00.003+08:00

goodness me....weekend is so boring..

i miss my cousin.... :(

yet another sleepless night

2010-10-04T06:19:00.004+08:00

So i decided to give up at the last 30 minute before i usually wakes up...

I dont know what im going to do later...this is madnesss....no matter how much i tried to close my eyes...i still couldnt sleep.....

At the same note...

Just want to let this out....So its gonna be a very short note...i hope....

For me...U are very important...
And I wonder, whether it is the same way or not, for U...

For me...U are all i think about
I wonder if U think about me as often....mm...i hope so

For me...I miss U so much...i wonder why...
and thinking whether U miss me as much...maybe not
...idk...

U always put a smile on my face...I hope U never stop...

mm...and U ;p....U can just ignore this....if u dont lyk...
And forget i ever wrote this..:)

*Budu apa ba sia fikir ni....

comic strip

2010-09-29T01:28:00.005+08:00

Pickles By Brian Crane

***

Sometimes,
i wonder whether someone, that someone dearest , stay,
because he loves, or just to kill time, or maybe, just maybe, trying to get things...

I am a fool...

or maybe it is just my stupid instinct...

either way....i am foolish to feel the way i feel...
because, thinking too much is just one of my problem...
and it never solves my confused mind...

and my insecurity might just cause me a great loss...

Funny prank..

2010-09-22T13:28:00.003+08:00

I find this really hilarious....

xD...

Until then peeps...:)

Craving + Mooncake

2010-09-20T23:56:00.011+08:00

I never really fancy Mooncakes before...because they are just too sweet for my liking...and i never like the combination of nuts with the dough...and same goes with the egg yolk....

but this had changed 2 years ago, when Leonard , my BIL, brought a box of mooncakes and shared with the whole family...;p...haha....if im not mistaken, this is exactly the one...tai thong mooncake...

The mooncakes was soo tender that i could mistaken them as marshmallow...not as chewy though...and looking back at pictures below reminds me of that day...where one slice of mooncakee wasss just not enough for me....i wonder if there is still mooncake selling...hmmm...

double egg yolk mooncake...which is a bit chewy...the usual type of mooncakes...;p

Durian snowskin mooncakes..as good as eating durian itself...minus the mess..

Green Tea flavoured

Yam flavoured mooncakeess...niceee...

...moreee and moreeeee and moreeeeee.....
There aree just so many choicesss....*phewww*

anyway...all pictures are not mine..:p

update update

2010-09-20T17:21:00.003+08:00

I realized that i didnt update my blog more often than i should...and that I didnt write what i wanted to....because i hate people judging me from what i write....unfortunately that's how it is...

I hate that everytime when i want to write down something, i have to think about what others may say...and that what i write is not appropriate...yeay i like to share inappropriate things like ...how i hate my day...or how i hate today's food...or could be mmore serious than that...all the things that are inappropriate...like how im complaining right noww....when i should be grateful...believe it or not...there are alot of things that i love tooo...i just dont keep it here...due to my busy happy days...:p...

i got so fed up...that i end up not updating anything......and u know what....most of what suppose to be the updates...stay as draft for months...until i decide to delete all...

well...i decided to change my blog address....but havent decide the title yet....maybe later when i find the best name i want...but now let me search in my head first..

To do list...

2010-09-19T01:17:00.003+08:00

Men!!!

Is that sooo hard to do?

This is how good Lenovo is...

2010-09-06T22:22:00.009+08:00

...water-proof....

...shatter-proof...

...heat-proof...

...grandma-proof...

multi-purpose like no other Lappy....

P.S. Buy Lenovo...u never know when ur grandma gonna make some good with your lappy.

Monday blues

2010-09-06T06:24:00.003+08:00

Ive been trying to sleep like hours ago, yet my mind still active....thinking about alot of stuffs...

I dont know how im going to face tomorrow....no no....actually tomorrow is today...

but i guess i have no choice but to face the day with eyes half opened...and focus...

Goodbyes always makes me wanna cry

2010-08-08T02:36:00.004+08:00

I never like goodbyes..

It leaves me empty everytime..

Though I've been through it countless time...the feeling of emptiness never lessen...it feels the same everytime...

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